Our dossier is officially registered at CONANI! We found out mid December. Now we wait (and wait) to be referred a child. Our paperwork states that we will accept a BOY or GIRL from newborn to 3 years old. We are very excited to see the child God has in store for us! It has taken me a long time to get here and to feel excited again.
After all we went through with Emily....I definitely had to regroup. I questioned why we traveled down this road only to be told, "No." I knew we were called to adoption, I knew I trusted God with His plan for us, but I could not get my mind around the fact that Emily would not become a part of our family. Through the adoption community, I came across a book called "The Strength of Mercy" by Jan Beazely. The author tells her own personal story of how she ready to adopt a little girl only to find out she had already been adopted. As she and her husband pray to God in their grief, she hears him whisper these words to her. "I showed you one...to give you another. Trust Me. You don't have time to grieve over this. If you do, you'll miss the child I have for you. I promise in the end you will see and understand." This stopped me in my tracks. As she goes on with rest of her story, I felt like I could have written that chapter myself. I could so relate with all the emotions that come flooding your way when you step out in faith only to find out this is not the plan YET.
So for now, we wait, trust and believe that God will bless us for our obedience. One day we will SEE and UNDERSTAND.